Monthly Archives: August 2019

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Sometimes it feels like underneath its shell of beauty, this life is just a mixture of sadness and pain.

:: butwecanbekind

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So sad and so beautiful,
The sunset would be her goodbye.
“May this day never end.”

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I awoke sometime at midnight, for no reason, and something didn’t feel right. I heard the lock to the door click, then a creak as it swung open. There were no footsteps or sounds. Eventually i gathered some courage and picked something up as a weapon; don’t recall what it was. I made my way slowly to the living room, acutely aware of how loud my breathing and heart sounded in my head. I was expecting an ugly and scary monster to jump out in front of me; that would’ve been shocking but expected.

Instead when i turned the corner, all i saw was a pair of wet footprints just in front of the door. Nothing else.

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It’s always the funniest people who are the saddest inside. It’s easier to convince someone that you’re okay when you can crack them up. Unfortunately you can’t lie to yourself the same. The emptiness and darkness stays with you, slips right back in to fill the gap that opened the moment that person you were talking to walks away.

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Life is messy, ugly, unforgiving and ultimately pointless, but also an undeniable gift.

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I do dangerous things because i’m starting to believe everyone who keeps telling me i’m too soft, and that scares me.

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How is it love if you become unimportant the moment your utility vanishes?

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Every night i dread falling asleep because it would mean a day has come to a close and still i have made no progress. But then i wake up the next day, exhausted, and unwilling to face another tedious and hopeless day. When i’m awake i don’t want to sleep and when i’m asleep i don’t want to wake up. I’m not sure i want to live but i don’t want to die.

But i won’t ask for help, i’m too tired to bother.

::glib

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You begin your journey out of loneliness by first being alone.

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Sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night and check my own pulse. Then i will feel relieved that no one would have to go through the hassle and awkwardness of reporting me dead on a work day.

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Not all your embarrassing moments disappear from others’ minds. I still remember the face of a stranger who had his fly down, my friend’s embarrassing fall, and a whole host of other things. It’s just up to us to protect these secrets as much as we’d like others to protect ours.

::comatose

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I left the sun behind,
As my spirit fled and my body followed.

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All it took was a tiny spark and the demon came to life, glowing hot, snaking out from my heart and into the tips of my being. It was scary but empowering, exciting but guilt-ridden.

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As i stretched in my seat i could feel my muscles settling, comfortable and ready to rest. But my mind was too awake; rather, my heart still dissatisfied with the day. I could not go to sleep until i had done something worthwhile.

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I’m writing because this is the only way to get good at it. I’ll probably look back to this one day and cringe, then delete it, but for now i’m satisfied enough with the knowledge that this process is necessary. I do really want to get good at this, so i must dedicate more time and effort to it.

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It’s hard to be happy again when you’ve already said your final goodbye.

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There is a balance that must be kept in this life, and we are powerless to go against it.

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Another sad day has passed, and the coming weeks will probably be the same. The one thing that truly bothers me though is i don’t know when it all began.

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The king lay peacefully in his coffin,
his loyal knight ever vigilant by his side.

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Even in your sleep you bring joy to my heart.

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His outward appearance was monstrous but the children flocked towards him nonetheless because they were still at that tender age where they could see through to his heart.

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Losing something is bad; not being grateful for what you haven’t lost is worse.

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Her perfume
made her seem more beautiful than she was.

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He cut off their eyelids and bound their hands, so they would see and hear everything.

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Some people think they are depressed when in fact their hearts have died.

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In life, not everyone will experience hitting rock bottom, but we have the ability to put our backs up against the wall so we may then push undoubtedly forward.

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It had all the parts of a man, but hideous and in the wrong places.

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The injured demon lay helpless, and then it made a noise that was unquestionably laughter.

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His legs were bent the wrong way. He had only his broken arms to drag his dying body across the field. He was still too far to see that the hospital had been destroyed.

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The soldier marches bravely on,
whilst at home his mother quietly weeps.

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It was a hot meal but he could not eat it, not after seeing the state his neighbour was in.

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It tried to imitate the sounds we made but could only manage some odd clicking, before it grimaced in obvious pain.

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The night sky
is never truly dark.

::practicemakesbetter

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Dear child,

You’ve always dreamt of being someone big. A person everyone knew, who made a big impact on the world.

There is nothing wrong with that.

Chase it, if you must, but don’t despair if you don’t reach it. More importantly, don’t let that vision let you lose sight of what you have now, right in front of you.

When will your tired soul accept that it is enough to be an excellent person, a good son, a loving husband, a dear friend, and a kind stranger?

Surely these are all glorious things, too, and also the bedrock of many more amazing things to come.

So please, slow down, calm yourself, and open your eyes. At least try, no?

::youcanalwaysdream